Late Night on the Uptown 30
by Marc Sobel  /  poetry  /  10 Oct 2007
There is a curious man
About 40 years old
White, with half a cigarette
Dark, designer sunglasses
And a beige bowler hat
Sitting on the bench
Under a leaning maple
Across from the 72nd Street stop
Staring up, lost in the leaves
His attention is fixed
On something deep in the branches
A squirrel perhaps, or a shadow
And his head, thrown back on his neck
Like the mouth of an open tea kettle
Exposes his adam's apple
Pressed hard against
The taut flesh of his unshaven throat
On the jagged cobbled sidewalk
Near his feet, sits a briefcase
Heavily worn gray leather
Its face scratched and spotted
And a small metal chain,
Woven through two steel clips
Linked around the broken handle
The man's head dangles back
Unmoving, transfixed
And as the bus pulls away
I turn in my seat
Craning to see his fading visage
When suddenly, through the layer of soot
Caked over back window
He turns and stares right at me
His gaze unwavering, penetrating
Our eyes lock in mutual recognition
And in those pale green reservoirs
I see pure terror
The familiar horror of inescapable routine
A desperate cry for help
Phantom, unshed tears
In a rush of instinct
I pull the chain,
Surprised by my own spontaneity
Yet frantic to understand
The mystery of this extraordinary man
But it is three excruciating blocks
Before the bus lurches to its clumsy halt
And wading against the stream of traffic
Through countless faces of impatient strangers
Hurrying, toward some imagined destiny
I run until my heart thunders in my chest
And sweat beads dampen my brows
Finally I reach the park entrance
The moon sighing overhead
My lungs gasping at the humidity
But the bench is barren, desolate
A mangled sculpture of decaying wood and scrap iron
Coated in a crumbling layer of emerald lead paint
Filled with inexplicable despair
I creep toward its fleshless skeleton
A strange twitch rising in my neck
But there is no trace of the man
Exhausted, confused and vaguely morose
I collapse on the bench
The exact spot my nameless friend
Must have vacated moments ago
And stare up, searching
For the object of his scrutiny
Through the thickets of dying leaves
Golden and autumn scarlet
I see it, a shimmering orb
A globule of perfect light
No larger than a quarter
Yet brighter than the Sun
And at once, in a single breath
I am exhaled from my body
My eyes are frozen, unblinking
Grasping at the flickering light
Which bleeds outward
Stroking the naked branches
Even as it fades
A star collapsing upon itself
I try to scream,
But my voice is a
Soundless gust of wind
Finally, an elbow jabs my ribs
A sharp, impatient motion,
Tearing me from the light
My eyes stutter open,
Struggling to refocus on the shadows
And I realize I am back on the bus
The night has settled in,
Coating the sky in a layer of tar
Broken by a smattering of distant stars
There is a familiar adam's apple
Bobbing up and down at me,
"End of the line, man
"This is the last stop" And as I pull myself up,
Anxious and startled
I stumble over something hard at my feet
A gray leather briefcase
With two steel clasps
And a broken handle.
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